The feeling of separation
What it feels like over here is…
A subtle and not-so subtle feeling of fear mixed with wanting.
A fear of losing what I have. Losing my lifestyle. Having to live with less. Having to make compromises I don’t want to make. And the embarrassment that that would bring.
And the wanting here is not for anything that I would call enlightenment or liberation. The wanting here plays itself out in the form of business success / financial wealth.
That’s just how it feels here – sometimes weaker and sometimes stronger.